I’ll be the first to admit I'm not the best at taking time for myself. I’ll power through sleepiness and will tell you “I’m fine” with a smile before I admit that i’m screaming for help on the inside.
I know that’s not the best thing to do, nor does it make for the best of company when i’m in a mood.
For the last two weeks I've found myself in a bit of a funk. Irritable, short tempered, snappy as hell, detached. And then over the weekend it hit me: I’m burnt out.
This quarantine life and living in uncertainty isn’t something to get used to. I’m not making a “new normal”, better yet, I’m trying to live in a world I have even less control in than before.
This is scary. At the same time, I have my daughter to care and guide during this time. So what can I do?
I can start by resting, taking time to be present, and enjoying the little things like how beautiful it’s been outside. And on some days I reset by painting with my daughter.
Sharing this space with her, one that is such a therapeutic and healing process for me, allows us to connect in new ways. The way her face lights up when I pour the paints, her curiosity when the colors blend. Being a parent sometimes it’s overwhelming, and your child asking 100+ questions every 5 minutes doesn’t help (though she means well.)
I’m still learning how to communicate my needs as a mom better/clearer so I’m not stressed.
For now, while we wait to see how the world around us changes and shifts, we paint. And maybe life will make sense that way.
***How are you maintaining your peace during this time?